Sunday, June 7, 2009
"Dad's in the house"
Jesse is sleeping right now after an active night of a little high blood pressure and going to the bathroom a lot. She is so pretty. It reminds me of the days when she was just a baby and I would watch her sleep. I guess it started way back with Lindsay just watching her breath to make sure she still was (first babies are always the most nerve racking). When Dee had Dakota I had already had practice with Lindsay so if anything happened or if she needed changing when we went out to eat I was always the one that took care of it. Then when Jesse came along Dee started taking over. She was the one that called 911 when Jesse turned blue when she was about one. And our little "glow bug" (McKenzie) had a high Bilirubin when she was born and was wrapped with a black light type blanket for weeks so Doctor Dee took charge of it. Seems Jesse has been a hand full since birth though always getting lots of attention (look what I can do). Well, she has my attention now. I am not sure if a bond between a Father and son is anything like the bond between a Father and daughter (McKenzie was my last chance to find out) but I can tell you there is nothing stronger than my love for all my daughters. I am sure all the parents know what I am talking about. Your kids will be your kids forever. They grow up and move out and maybe get married or just start their own lives but they are still your babies and you worry about them all the time. I want to stop here and thank my Mom for hanging in there with my brother and me. We were a hand full for a single mom with a bad heart. I'm sure we didn't help it any either. I'm sorry for all the trouble I caused you while I was growing up (I guess I am still trying to grow up but now I'm Dee's problem).
When I curled up on the bed last night with Jess I actually had a moment where I thought I was in control and could protect her from all the things that are attacking her. We talked about how close to the end of the marathon she was and how 8 months ago she was taking her first step of this journey. I reminded her of all the trials she had come through and that this next two weeks of getting enough ANC to come home is the easy part. She has a few mouth sores but I reminded her of the last time she had the sores (and to keep taking her medicine for the sores regardless of the terrible taste). Just scroll back and check out the pictures (February 7). She doesn't have them near as bad. What a blessing. Her sheet hasn't come in yet so I don't know if she has any ANC but we will update when we find out.
Jesse is awake now so I am signing off. I have the strongest urge to go kiss her face and hold her.
Dee, Jesse wants you to bring prenatal vitamins when you come. Is there something Dad doesn't know about (MATT!?). I didn't think so.
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