Friday, April 3, 2009

Day 12 of Recovery- Anc 0


Good Morning Prayer Warriors,


Well, there's not much to say. Last night was exactly like the time before it...except for more crying. Usually when she starts to vomit there's not much you can do for her. You just have to pretty much let her do her thang and if she wants any help she'll tell you. It just becomes even more heartbreaking though when she starts to cry. She told me that she didn't want to do this anymore. I can understand why she wouldn't want to, but at that time and moment I wish I wasn't the one she was telling this to. I can't imagine what she feels. The exhaustion that she must feel is pretty much unfathomable. All I could say to her was that she was almost all through this terrible storm.

Yesterday we were told that the pain in Jesse's chest might be caused by anxiety. With all that Jesse is thinking about and worrying about, it all adds up in the end. Really...compared to the people who get anxiety when they get on planes and what not, Jess, a sixteen year old girl who was suddenly diagnosed with Leukemia, has a whole bunch of disturbances stirring around in her. To help though, she will be prescribed this medication that will hopefully help with the pain AND her nausea.

There are so many things that could be the cause for her pain in her chest. My mom and I were discussing that it could possibly be from the violent coughs that she has, which could also be the problem that's causing her to throw up all the time. I pray that we'll be able to find a solution.

Please pray that the Therapist that will be visiting Jesse today will be able to maybe help her with her pain. Pray that he will bring encouraging and wise words to her. Please also pray that the rest of Jesse's day will go as well as possible.

Thank you all for everything!

Much love,

~Kota~

8 comments:

Toni said...

Wow, wish there was someting we could do to help. Hope you do get some pain relief today - there has to be some sort of medication for you. All of our thoughts and prayers are sent your way. You deserve to be free from all this misery. Almost done though! Get that ANC up so you can spend some time at home with your family.

Love from Oregon,
The Rieger Family

Jeremy Ashlock said...

Hey Jesse,

Long time since I've posted. I'm sorry, but I must confess I haven't been praying for you like I should be. Please forgive me. I've been all wrapped up in myself and I'm very ashamed of it. So I'm sorry and I am getting back to praying for you and your family.

Just keep resting and hoping in the Lord knowing that He who began a good work in you is FAITHFUL to complete it.

Jesse God has a plan for you, me, and everyone else. Understand that even though you are going through what seems to be the valley of the shadow of death, Jesus loves you and will complete the work He has began in you.

My heart breaks for you every time I read your blog and I can't wait until your body begins to heal to see you Glorify the Lord not because of what you have made it through, but because of the work He has done in your life. It's all about Him, never forget that.

You are amazingly strong and kind hearted. I hope my daughter grows to have a heart like yours. Hang in there and rest in the Lord.

In Him,

Jeremy & Korinne Ashlock

God's Girl said...

God's Word tells us that He hears our groans and Jesus intercedes for us. I am so thankful for that. It just seems like there are no words at times!

Jesse, when you are going through such physical pain and emotional wipe out, God hears and understands.

I am so sorry you are going through this. There are definitely things in life that I don't understand... and yet I know God is good and faithful.

Love you sweet girl!

XOXO
Julie

Grandma and Grandpa said...

"The Lord is righteous in all His ways, and holy in all His works. The Lord is near to all them that call on Him, to all that call on Him in truth. He will fulfill the desire of them that fear Him: He also will hear their cry, and will save them. The Lord preserves (keeps)all them that love Him." Psalms 145:17-20a.

My Darling Jesse, I hurt so much for you, and am so very sorry you hurt so badly. If I could take it all away from you, I would, so very gladly. But I can't. I can only hurt when you hurt, and love you so deeply, and pray very earnestly for you. And when you are feeling tired and weak, I hold you up in faith before our loving Father. There was a time when I was so weak I could hardly walk, and so sick I didn't think I could last long. I told God, "Father, forgive me, but I don't feel like I can even pray, and there is my family and so many others that I need to lift up to you." A voice spoke to me from behind, and said, "My child, do not worry, my Spirit will pray for you until you are able to." The poem 'Footprints in the Sand' came to my mind immediately. I could only say "Oh thank you Lord!" Rest in Him, Jesse, and thank Him because He is God Almighty. He WILL take care of you and see you through this valley of pain and illness, for He loves you and He is faithful. Victorious joy is coming soon!

We love you all and send big hugs and love in bushels , pecks, and barrels!

Anonymous said...

Wow Dakota,

You are such a great writer and mature. So glad to hear that Jesse has you there by her side. It is important to be able to tell someone your struggles such as hers, so many. We will be praying for her therapist, her chest and her cough. My prayer is that there is more comfort for her body and healing in this time. It is such a long battle and I am sorry there is nothing that we can say to make it better. We will continue to pray.

Much love,

Sammy

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Lauren said...

Jesse,
I'm am at a loss to explain the sympathy I have for you. I think all I can leave for you is that God is holding you in His Everlasting Arms.

I saw you got a facebook - I just added you as a friend! I think you will like facebook!! Hopefully when you play it will help pass time at the Hospital.

You're almost through. Like your sister said, this terrible storm is almost over. It may be hard to see, but there is a light at the end of the tunnel.

Meghan! = ] said...

Jesse I'm so sorry this has to be happening to you. I wish it was over too.

Don't worry though, you've gotten so far and you're so close to being done with this.

I love you and miss you so much! I cannot wait to see you again, whenever that may be.

I'm praying for you...

Love Meghan.
<3