Good Morning to all of Jesse's friends and family,
Jesse had a pretty rough night. She threw up several times (still blood) and is still in a lot of pain from her swollen Liver. Her ANC is 336. It didn't jump much today so hopefully the white blood cells are trying to heal the sores in her mouth and throat to stop the bleeding. We are still hopeful that she is coming home Monday. We just hope she is in better shape if she does. It is so important that she gets a break from this "torment" she is in and home will be a nice change of scenery. It would really be cool for her to sleep through the night too.
I would like to share something that changed my life a long time ago (good time to send Jes a blog if you are not interested).
When we lived in Oregon I went to a Promise Keepers men's rally in Sacramento. The theme of this rally was "The Role of a Father". We learned how God has appointed the man the head of the house hold. Not to rule with an iron fist but to be open minded, listen to your spouse, and make the decision that is best for your family (after a lot of thought and prayer). Men....you will be held accountable for your actions and decisions (straight from the Bible). We have been given a huge responsibility and also a privilege. At this meeting the speaker showed how Jesus, also being given this huge responsibility handled it with love and compassion (which is how we are to handle our Family). With all of his followers watching He humbled himself (to the lowest position in those days) and washed his disciples feet to show how a leader can also be a servant. Man! I couldn't wait to get back home. It was late Saturday night when I got home so Sunday morning I lined up the four girls and Mom in chairs and started with the littlest one and started washing feet. At first they all thought I was funny and they laughed. But as I was telling each one all the special things I loved about them and how very much they blessed me and how sorry I was for falling way short of what a good Father should be it took on a new meaning. The tears started flowing. As I came to Dee it was very hard to get the words out I wanted to say. As I touched her feet the emotional and spiritual bond that we had then (and has grown even more since) was apparent to even the girls. That day they got to see a big burly guy cry and tell their Mom how much he loved her. How she is the one person that completes me. I told Dee how sorry I was that I fall so short of being a good husband and father and thanked her for being by my side even so. That whole experience was something all the girls and I have never forgotten. I am not saying that you guys should drop what you are doing and go wash your families feet (wouldn't hurt anyone though) I am just saying that Valentines Day should be more than flowers and chocolate. The love you show your wife is something the kids watch and will want from their husband. Every day should be Valentines Day. Trust me...every day isn't at our house ...it just should be. But when Dee and I meet in the Kitchen or even coming out of the bathroom (after washing our hands) there is always a touch or kiss from one of us that assures the other one that our love is still going strong. That we are always here for the other person. That special "God given" connection.
Have a great Valentines Day and try to really show someone how much you love them. It takes effort (men) from our side but I think you will always find the Ladies on our side of the "meet you in the middle" area.
Thanks for all of your prayers and blogs. We love you all.