Good afternoon everyone,
Each night seems to be a repeat of the last. Jesse is still throwing up constantly, which is hard to believe when she has absolutely nothing inside of her. Well...except for her medications, JESSE DID YOU FORGET THAT THOSE ARE SUPPOSED TO HELP YOU, THEY CAN'T DO THEIR JOB IF YOU KEEP CHUCKING THEM UP. I'm just kidding, I know you can't keep them down which is one of the worst parts of this.
When I woke up this morning I found Jesse vomiting again. All I could do was look at her with remorse and sorrowfulness. I screamed inside of my mind...asking God to please help her.
YOUR AMAZING JESSE, I DON'T KNOW HOW YOU DO IT EVERYDAY. EVEN LAST NIGHT AS I WATCHED YOU GET UP TO GO TO THE BATHROOM FOR THE HUNDREDTH TIME, YOU WERE PUKING AS YOU WERE WALKING. YOU ACTED LIKE IT WAS NO BIG DEAL. I REMEMBER WHEN WE WERE LITTLE AND WHENEVER WE THREW UP WE WOULD ALWAYS CRY FOR MOM AND DAD TO COME HELP US BECAUSE WE WERE SCARED. I DON'T SEE THAT YOUR SCARED ANYMORE, JUST EXTREMELY ANNOYED.
Man, I hope this day goes easier for Jess. My dad was right when he said that it is better for her to be asleep all day so that she doesn't feel any pain and what not. If that's what it takes, keeping myself entertained to get through the day without talking to her is just fine.
LET ME TELL YOU JESS I FELT MORE LIKE A SISTER YESTERDAY WHEN I WAS ABLE TO LAY ON YOUR BED WITH YOU AND JUST HOLD YOU. IT WAS A GREAT FEELING TO HAVE YOU IN MY ARMS BECAUSE I HAVE MISSED YOU SO MUCH. IT MAKES ME FEEL CLOSER TO YOU AND IT REMINDS ME OF THE GREAT SISTERLY BOND THAT WE HAVE. I LOVE YOU JESS!!!
Well let me say thanks to you all who pray for Jesse and the rest of us. I appreciate the calls that I have been receiving lately. Thank you so much.