Sunday, November 2, 2008

Last night of Chemo


Good morning prayer warriors,
The last night of Chemo was the worst night we have had so far. I thought the back pain was hard to watch Jesse go through. Last night started off with us having to be evacuated from our room because the plumbing backed up in our bathroom (nobody used it) and flooded out into the room. The smell was toxic and dangerous for Jesse. We are now in room 207B. Jesse's temperature peeked at 107 and they had to ice down her body. That is not as comfortable as you might think. Shaking and cooking at the same time confuses your body into violent trembling. Every time she had to go to the bathroom (always diarrhea) she had to throw up (mostly dry heaving) to the point where she started throwing up small bits of blood. She would sit and tremble on the porta-pot to where I thought if I hadn't have been holding her she would of fallen off. My poor little girl went through so much last night and all she did was look up at me with sad eyes and tell me she was sorry. I cried the most I have cried since this started. To think she is inconveniencing because I don't sleep or that I have to hold her head while she throws up? I begged the Lord for no more. My baby has been through enough with just the Chemo and all this extra didn't make sense. All of her life Deanna and I have taught her of the Lords love and kindness and everything is His will and plan. How do I explain that it is the same God allowing her to go through this and it will be a blessing. I haven't lost faith in God. I just need him more now than I ever have.
Please say a special prayer for Deanna and me for strength to get through this terrible disease and be strong enough that Jesse can see it and have hope and peace that only Gods gives.
Thank you all so much for your support and prayers. It means so much.

10 comments:

Erica said...

Deanna & Clent -

Watching you guys struggle through this terrible disease and fight for sweet Jesse is tough as a mama. David and I hurt with you and can't imagine the inner struggle of understanding the why.

Our prayer for you is that God will not only show mercy on Jesse as she fights the biggest battle of her life but also that He will strengthen each of you today. Give you the grace to face each new day and press on towards the goal of completing chemo to rid Jesse's body of this vicious disease.

We are interceding on your behalf, standing in the gap as you fight with Jesse. Lifting you up daily.

Romans 8:26-27
In the same way, the Spirit helps us in our weakness. We do not know what we ought to pray for, but the Spirit himself intercedes for us with groans that words cannot express. And he who searches our hearts knows the mind of the Spirit, because the Spirit intercedes for the saints in accordance with God's will.

Ephesians 6:13
Therefore put on the full armor of God, so that when the day of evil comes, you may be able to stand your ground, and after you have done everything, to stand.

Donna said...

Dear Catron's,

I am so sorry that you are having to go through so much. We are praying for you continually. I cannot even imagine what you are going through. May God wrap His arms around you all.

God bless you,
Donna Manning and Family

My Blessed Life said...

We are interceding on your behalf to our heavenly father. You are all part of our daily prayers and we are wearing our Jesse bracelets to remind us to constantly lift her up.

Jeremy Ashlock said...

Our family hurts and feels the pain that you are going through even though we can't begin to understand the way you feel! We are praying for you all and just want to encourage you to keep praying and seeking Jesus and He will give you peace! May you find rest and comfort in the arms of our Lord!

"Be anxious for nothing, but in everything by prayer and supplication, with thanksgiving, let your requests be made known to God; and the peace of God, which surpasses all understanding, will guard your hearts and minds through Christ Jesus." Phil. 4:6-7

Jeremy & Korinne Ashlock

Anonymous said...

Our thoughts and prayers are with you. Darryl,Elissa Hill

Meghan =] said...

Oops I just figured out how to do comments on this...

I left a comment on an old blog and it should have gone on this one. Sorry!

Just know that I love and miss you soo much. I'm praying for you and your family constantly.

Anjelina keeps talking about how she misses you and needs to see you. I wish you could hear her, its pretty cute.

I read this most recent blog and started to cry. I can only imagine what your going through... I seriously wish this was over with.

I love you so much Jesse. Now that I know about this site, I will be checkin and leavin messages all the time =]

Love you chica! <3

michelealvarez said...

Jesse, Deanna, Clent, Dakota & Kenzi-
We praise the Lord for Jesse's condition today. We've been praying for her fever to go down, and for her to begin to feel better.
Clent's message broke our hearts yesterday. We've been pleading before the Lord for All of you.
We will continue to pray for God's healing, his peace and sweet rest for Jesse. We pray for strength, endurance, and God' peace to surround your family as you tend to and love Jesse through this ordeal.
We love you guys-
Michele & Chris Alvarez & family

Meredith Turner said...

wow...i dont really have any words to say. seeing someone my age worry about chemo and cancer instead of things like school sports and prom breaks my heart. God does everything for a reason and im sure its very difficult to see a reason through this. Dont think of this as a way of God testing you or punishing you. The enemy only attcks the ones that are strong. So you jesse have been strong in the Lord and this is the devils way of trying to bring you down. So keep your head high girly. I cant say enough about the inspiration you are.
Praying for you always,
Meredith Turner

Anonymous said...

(Brianna)

aww im so glad that you are improving more and more everyday!! I'm sorry bout your hair....but it will grow back! and you can wear a beautiful wig. Your mom and dad are right....your smile does brighten the day.....and I'm so glad that you don't have to loose a smile...lol
well i'll ttyl!

J.O.D-
What's the easiest way to put a giraffe in a fridge?

By opening the door and putting it in. i didn't get this joke...but maybe you will. ;) haha you'll have to explain it to me when you get out of the hospital. haha

-Brianna

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