I have been tasked with posting the daily blog. For those who are regular readers I cannot begin to describe how hard it is to put this exhausting, emotional, and surreal experience into words. As I look at my sister sleeping, she finally looks at peace...everything is calm, everyone has gone home for the evening. The break in chaos leaves room for my first in hospital emotional breakdown, I can't help but bawl into coffee filter like tissues, a whole day of trying to be strong and trying not to cry in front of Jesse has finally worn me down. Although this trip will probably be one of the hardest things i will go through i have already found a huge blessing in day one; appreciation. To appreciate every moment we have with our children, to feel blessed and appreciate the fact that we can tuck them into their own beds, in their own safe warm home.
I feel very blessed to be able to be here, to be able to give my parents a break from the night shift (they haven't been together for 3 weeks). Jesse did really well last night ( just the normal throwing up and diarrhea) and now has an ANC count of 40! Thank you for supporting and praying for my parents and family. May the prayers continue and may Jesse find comfort and rest in her recovery.