Tuesday, November 18, 2008

Day 16 of Recovery

Good morning everyone,

Last night was definitely a challenge. I haven't stayed the night with Jesse since the first week she was diagnosed. The whole routine has completely changed. I got to experience first hand what my parents have to go through every night with her. I give them props for how happy they are the next day even though they are deprived of sleep.

During the night Jesse went to the bathroom at least 7 times. I sort of lost track after the fifth time. Both of us would have had a much better night of sleeping if poor little Brady, the baby next to Jesse, didn't cry all night. Also, it would have helped if the beeping of all the machines didn't go off every time we eventually fell asleep. Jesse experienced no fevers yesterday, THANK THE LORD!!! Unfortunately, she did throw up once in the afternoon around 12:40, right after her CT Scan. The results for the scan showed that her colon is getting better...FINALLY! Her ANC count has gone down to 124, mostly because her body is using the white blood cells to heal the other parts of her body.

This morning after I came back to Jesse's room from getting ready, I found her with her sheets over her head. I went over to her and asked what was wrong, and like always she said, "Nothing." I knew better than that, plus the fact that a tear was rolling down her nose anyways. She confessed to me how much she wants to go home and how she wants to have her old life back. All I could do for her was rub her back and tell her that this is all just temporary. As I was comforting my little sister, Dr. Haskins came in. She sat on her bed and also rubbed her back, telling her how sorry she is for her. She asked if she could pray for us and we immediately accepted her offer. Her prayer was strong and encouraging. It definitely made Jesse feel better and less depressed that she has to stay in this small hospital room.

I can't wait for the day till Jesse can come home and be normal once again. I want to sit on her bed with her and listen to loud music while watching Jericho, her dog, be a complete dork. I want to laugh with her and joke around. Man, I'm going to take advantage of the time that I'm going to get with her once she comes home for those few days from the hospital, and especially those days when she is finally cured. It's going to be awesome to be able to catch up on those fun days with her, like when we go shopping, to the movies, out to eat...GIRLS JUST WANNA HAVE FUN!!!

Who knows what today has in store for us, but hopefully God will bless us with a good day, one that will bring us that much closer to Jesse becoming better.

We all appreciate every ones prayers and support, thank you so much :)


Anonymous said...

Dear Jesse,
We continue to pray for you and your family. As I read your blogs, my heart is sad that you are going through this, but joyful that you have such a wonderful realtion with the lord and that you are leaning on him, and even though I'm sure you would trade all this in, you are willing to endure it if the lord can minister to someone else through you. That says alot for who you are. Take care Jesse know that there are soooo many people who love you and are praying for you, and know that God is with you at all times. We love you and will continue to check on you, and are looking forward to the blog that says you are on your way home....
Love..Kristen McGuire and Family

Erica said...

Dakota girl you made me cry. I'm so proud of you staying with Jesse, caring for her, fighting for her, and encouraging her when she's down. This is a tough road for all of you. Praying for strength as you face each new day.

Jesse sweetie - how AWESOME is it that you have a doctor that sits on your bed to pray with you?!?! Only God could have ordained that incredible moment. Just what you need, when you need it.

We are praying for your continued recovery, maybe just maybe you'll get to eat today. Praying your eating, walking, and feeling much better by the weekend! Praising Jesus in the little things! You will be home before you know it.

The chorus from Kutless' Strong Tower song is my prayer for you today.

You are my strong tower
Shelter over me
Beautiful and mighty
Everlasting King
You are my strong tower
Fortress when I'm weak
Your name is true and holy
And Your face is all I seek

In the middle of my darkness
In the midst of all my fear
You're my refuge and my hope
When the storm of life is raging
And the thunder's all I hear
You speak softly to my soul

2 Corinthians 13:9
We are glad whenever we are weak but you are strong; and our prayer is for your perfection.

Love you girlie.


Anonymous said...

Hey Jesse!
I'm glad that your colon is getting better. That's really good news! Hey, you'll be home in no time. I really hope and pray that you can go home for Thanksgiving though. That would be so cool.

You continue to stay in my prayers every night.

luv ya,
Natali Leaton

Lauren said...

Love the new look on Jesse's Website! Adorable!

Dakota -
Your post brought tears to me. I am so glad Jesse is comforted by you. That is awesome. I'm so glad you can give your parents a night off, that is also so great. You are so sweet! I am praying for you, that you may have strength and courage as you help care for and strengthen Jesse as she fights the fight of her life.

Jesse - so glad your doctor was there to pray with you when you needed it. I think we can all safely say that God works in amazing ways, providing what we need when we need it most. what a blessing! You are such a HUGE blessing to me, I can't even put it into words. You are awesome! Keep going strong...you're doing awesome! You're on your way to a few awesome days at home! You go girl!


Charlene said...

Love the new look.....

You're the bomb and you're so awesome. Jesse is so blessed to you as a sister not to mention to have all of you, your dad, mom, and sisters Lindsay and McKenzie. Believe me you're an inspiration to her, keep giving her your encouragement. I'm so glad to hear about this Dr. Haskins praying for Jesse and encouraging her as well. It's great to know she has her doctor on her cheering team.

Continue your fight, keep the faith, keep your head and chin up too. Praying that your recovery continues to get better so you can go home soon.

Grandma and Grandpa said...

Hi Jesse,
How wonderful that you and Dakota could have some time together! It's not like being at home, but I know you both enjoyed it as much as possible.

We had our first real snow, yesterday evening and again this morning. Last night we were heading home when it fell; this morning we were heading to the VA Medical Center when the sky opened up and dumped the white stuff. We saw about eight accidents in a 5-mile stretch. The temp got up to 37 degrees today, I think, and with the wind blowing, it was like 22. Most of the snow is gone now, but it is COLD.

So glad to hear you are healing inside. Little by little, you are getting there! And remember to pray for GRACE to be patient through all of this. The grace of God covers all. Patience is brought about through trials and tribulations. So asking God for His grace to be patient, He gives it abundantly, and the getting of patience is much easier. And Darling, don't cry for your old life. It was good, but your future is going to be so much better! -- Look forward to that, and read in the Word all that God has promised you.

We want to remind you, and all of the family, how very, very thankful we are that you are OUR family (Lindsay and family included); how proud we are of all of you; how very much we love you; and how thankful we are that you are so loveable that so many others love you too! We, also, thank everyone for their love and prayers for you, and ask God to bless each one.

Nat said...


Im not anonymous anymore!...YAEE!!!!

Anonymous said...

Sweet Jesse,
I wanted to let you know that when we closed our women's study last night, we all gathered in a prayer circle to lift up the concerns of our heart. You were prayed for so much. We continue to ask God to comfort you and heal you!!
The Turner Family

Anonymous said...


I continue to pray for your healing inside and through your spirit. The Lord will continue to fill you up. Your faith is so strong, remember the woman that simply touched the hem of the Lord's garment. You remind me of her. Thank you for being an encouragement to me. I am telling my girls about you and you are teaching so many people, being an encouragement to those that you do not even know. Blessings to your day. Dakota and you look so beautiful in that picture. I pray that the family stays strong in the fight. I pray that your ANC count continues to rise and that your body heals.

Stay strong and remember you are His child.



Anonymous said...

Dear Dakota & Jesse,

How lucky you are to have each other! You're fine examples of why I want to have another child...a sibling for Laynie and yet another cousin for you guys. Growing up I didn't have siblings but I can imagine how they could have helped me through the tough times. The love you have for one another brings tears to my eyes and warms my heart at the same time. I hope that each passing day brings peace to you both, your parents, Lindsay and McKenzie. Uncle Cory and I are so very proud of you both and the bravery your showing during this difficult time. We wish we could be closer to you all! We love you and think of you constantly!

Aunt Melissa, Uncle Cory, & Laynie

Jasie said...

Dear Jesse,

I contiue to pray for you and your family. I feel so bad for you, even though I've never been through what you are going through, I know its hard. I will pray that you have a good night sleep, and whatever tomorrow has in store for you, you will be blessed. Whatever tests or scans you have will come back good, and the doctors WILL be blown away when they see how well you are doing, and how fast you are healing. It WILL be a mirical in Jesus name. God is always there Jesse, never forget. I think its pretty cool how your older sis got a tattoo for you. Hope you feel a lot better tomorrow!!!...... Infact, you will feel better, I call it out in JESUS name....... all I need is for you to believe with me....... It says in the bible whenever two or more of us agree it is done....... there is way more than two of us praying in Faith for you Jesse. Whenever I feel sad, and discouraged I go to bed whispering Jesus......Jesus.....Jesus............Jesus...... Until I fall asleep. Mabe you should try it. God has great plans for you Jesse. Don't think this is slowing him down...... He is still going full force. You will make it through this in Jesus name. Please believe Jesse. I will pray for the best.

Sending it in God's name,

Jasie Trimble

Anonymous said...


aww im so glad that you are doing better! and Dekota, i repsect you totally....i would be doing the same thing....and you always have those kinda updates where when i read them, the tears sting my eyes...lol

well you gals get some more sleep tonight...and i will keep you in my prayers

My Blessed Life said...

Dakota you made me cry girl what a sweet sister you are. Although this time is hard the bonding that is happening is priceless. Jesse you are such an amazing girl we continue to pray for healing for you. You are an inspiration to all who have the privilege of knowing you. God bless you.