Good morning everyone,
Last night was definitely a challenge. I haven't stayed the night with Jesse since the first week she was diagnosed. The whole routine has completely changed. I got to experience first hand what my parents have to go through every night with her. I give them props for how happy they are the next day even though they are deprived of sleep.
During the night Jesse went to the bathroom at least 7 times. I sort of lost track after the fifth time. Both of us would have had a much better night of sleeping if poor little Brady, the baby next to Jesse, didn't cry all night. Also, it would have helped if the beeping of all the machines didn't go off every time we eventually fell asleep. Jesse experienced no fevers yesterday, THANK THE LORD!!! Unfortunately, she did throw up once in the afternoon around 12:40, right after her CT Scan. The results for the scan showed that her colon is getting better...FINALLY! Her ANC count has gone down to 124, mostly because her body is using the white blood cells to heal the other parts of her body.
This morning after I came back to Jesse's room from getting ready, I found her with her sheets over her head. I went over to her and asked what was wrong, and like always she said, "Nothing." I knew better than that, plus the fact that a tear was rolling down her nose anyways. She confessed to me how much she wants to go home and how she wants to have her old life back. All I could do for her was rub her back and tell her that this is all just temporary. As I was comforting my little sister, Dr. Haskins came in. She sat on her bed and also rubbed her back, telling her how sorry she is for her. She asked if she could pray for us and we immediately accepted her offer. Her prayer was strong and encouraging. It definitely made Jesse feel better and less depressed that she has to stay in this small hospital room.
I can't wait for the day till Jesse can come home and be normal once again. I want to sit on her bed with her and listen to loud music while watching Jericho, her dog, be a complete dork. I want to laugh with her and joke around. Man, I'm going to take advantage of the time that I'm going to get with her once she comes home for those few days from the hospital, and especially those days when she is finally cured. It's going to be awesome to be able to catch up on those fun days with her, like when we go shopping, to the movies, out to eat...GIRLS JUST WANNA HAVE FUN!!!
Who knows what today has in store for us, but hopefully God will bless us with a good day, one that will bring us that much closer to Jesse becoming better.
We all appreciate every ones prayers and support, thank you so much :)